I Hope

I realy don't want having this conversation today. 17th of december? Please, don't.  Do you know what I want? I want forget that person exists. I'm trying make this a long time. Sometimes I just can't, I think about this, I think about her, I think about you guys both. 
I don't want this anymore, I don't want this feeling. I don't deserve all things I passed, I don't deserve all things I feel. 
But sometimes I have no choise. I'm dealing with this. So, please: Make the same.